{"id":15402,"date":"2012-04-26T16:31:00","date_gmt":"2012-04-26T20:31:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/hameblog\/2012\/04\/26\/word-makes-world\/"},"modified":"2025-09-12T07:50:14","modified_gmt":"2025-09-12T10:50:14","slug":"word-makes-world","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/blether\/2012\/04\/26\/word-makes-world\/","title":{"rendered":"Word makes world"},"content":{"rendered":"

The last few days I’ve been stopping to catch my inner monologue and replace it with something less driven, more compassionate, more useful, more fun<\/em>. What a joy! And why not? Why does the other monologue feel “realistic”, like I somehow have a responsibility to run that tape of wearying, demanding voices?<\/p>\n<\/p>\n

This afternoon, having cooked dinner and made pudding for my brother & his family while they drive up from Inverness, I sat on the couch. I lay down and napped for a while. I straightened up and read for a bit. Then”¦ I stopped. And looked.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n

It felt like waking up a second time. I looked at the plant winding its way up in the corner of the living room””three charmed, skinny wooden snakes with leafy headdresses, and I sunk even deeper into the moment.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n

This is the other thing I’m remembering in these moments of moments: the feeling of living twice by observing things through the filter of How would I write that?<\/em><\/p>\n<\/p>\n

As I transfer all my notes from last year (in my Gregg shorthand of the time””ack!), typing them out onto 3×5 cards, I look at the task ahead in writing this novel and I know that what I need to succeed at this again (can I say that?) is interiority<\/em>. I want my inner life back. My attention. My original “Wild Mind”, as Natalie Goldberg<\/a> calls it””she whose book of the same name first got me started on this writing path.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n

In that place, writing becomes something completely different. A line from Rumi comes to mind””which I think Natalie quotes in the book:<\/p>\n<\/p>\n

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I’ll meet you there.<\/em><\/p>\n<\/p>\n

It feels like a religious calling, a coming back to faith, because writing is the best thing I’ve found for helping me fully experience this world and feel like I’m engaged in a practice that takes me closer to whatever it’s about.<\/p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

The last few days I’ve been stopping to catch my inner monologue and replace it with something less driven, more compassionate, more useful, more fun. What a joy! And why not? Why does the other monologue feel “realistic”, like I somehow have a responsibility to run that tape of wearying, demanding voices? This afternoon, having […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15402","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/blether\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15402","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/blether\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/blether\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/blether\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/blether\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=15402"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/blether\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15402\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/blether\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=15402"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/blether\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=15402"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hame.ink\/blether\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=15402"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}