• A quick hello

    I’m just stealing a minute to drop a line from work. I’ve been very busy with big work projects and visiting with folks. I’m down to that horrible slider-puzzle part of the trip when I’ve only got a few spaces left in which to see people before I leave (even though that’s a week away).

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    I had dinner the other night with the owners of the company I write for, along with some of the team members, and a client of ours who used to be in patent law before the dot-com bubble burst and took away all of his business. Now he’s back helping companies like ours become positive monopolies. We had a fascinating talk that night. It was neat to hear him tell stories of working with Apple, Sun Microsystems, FaceBook, and just about every major technological player in hardware and software.

    Fact du jour: Apparently the iPod isn’t patented. Steve and the team were so concerned about leaks that they didn’t want to file documents that would give away their trade secrets. Hm; who knew?

    When I came into the office yesterday I saw the caterer’s bill for the meal lying on the desk I’m borrowing: $1,700. So this is how the other half lives.

    But the other side of the equation is what the people in our program do with their new-found wealth and freedom. No one’s obliged to be charitable, but man is it moving to hear the stories of those who are. These people are used to being successful, and know how to get results, so when they turn their minds to solving problems they do amazing things — like the fella who built five schools in his area (you can build a school?), another who’s shipped millions of dollars worth of aid to Belarus, or a woman who’s created a fundamentally different way for families with special needs to receive care.

    The news seems to be about things falling apart, about the evil in people’s hearts — particularly people in business. It’s difficult to think about them any other way. But twice a year I’m exposed to an invisible movement made up of very successful people who are good, loving, committed human beings. I don’t always agree with everyone’s politics, but if this is how they’re choosing to use their success, more power to them.

  • Canada = The future?

    A Canadian firm has come up with a product called Cold-FX, which they claim makes a cold go away three times faster. Having a cold, I figured I’d try it. So? Yup, it seems to. Maybe this was one that would have gone away quickly on its own. Maybe the result is due to the placebo effect. Whatever the case, all that’s left is a slight cough, and that’s worth paying for in my books.

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    So the Canadians have cured the common cold. (Kinda.)

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    Then there’s the recycling. It’s really good here. I have to walk about a mile with my recyclables in Edinburgh (even further if I want to get rid of my glass), and there’s absolutely nothing in the city centre on the street. Here, I can walk along the street, finish my drink, and find a recycling bin for the bottle or can within fifty feet. I like that. Whatever the economics or sense of recycling, I can’t imagine there’s any good argument for just landfilling all this stuff.

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    And how about having the Internet everywhere? This afternoon I turned on my Pocket PC’s WiFi antenna, and connected to the ‘net via wireless points that have been installed on the hydro poles. I’ve wanted this for a long time.

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    (Though it does strike me as a bit strange now that these wires are aboveground.)

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    This afternoon I sat in the orchestra pit and craned my neck up to see Wicked. It was kind of like Jaws, watching the top of the witch’s hat go back and forth, but I really enjoyed the experience. The handful of musicians were friendly, and it was fun to see the show from their perspective (I’ve only ever been onstage, and only had an orchestra on two occasions). I like the show, too. It’s got its fluffy moments, and there are lots of those requisite power ballad moments. I think we’d all like to have those in our lives, chances to stand downstage centre, declaim our thoughts and feelings in song, and know we’re going to be heard. But for all the fun, the show is clever and has some darker, more political themes than most musicals.

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    Brett and I went for pierogies, and I also had some fried potatoes with white vinegar with them. It was all very Canadian. Even the restaurant had a Canadian feel (something about the exposed brick, the wooden features, and the photographs inside). I’m increasingly aware with these visits that there is a Canadian ethos. I want to learn how to articulate what that is, just as I’d like to be able to communicate the Scottish aesthetic. (Make that plural, as there are many Scotlands.)

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    I worked late last night, since I had to finish an article but next week’s workdays are already spoken for. Then when Lisa got home from her catering shift, she, Alvaro, and our friend Brad went to a party. I was so tired that I said I didn’t think I could hold a coherent conversation; so the bastards left me alone with a woman who was perfectly nice, except as we talked about the Concorde and her breast feeding her new daughter (explaining as she took another satay chicken skewer that she was eating for two), I couldn’t help but wonder if she was coming on to me, and I was struggling to stay coherent.

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    I’m starting to feel a little bit like that again, but I’ve got a bottle of wine in a paper bag in front of me, and when I finish my root beer (another of those “can’t get it there” treats), I’m off to another house party, where I may or may not know anyone other than the host.

  • “Hey, it’s you!”

    I’m sitting in a vegetarian restaurant, waiting for my editor and her boyfriend.

    I had a terrible hangover when I woke up this morning. At Gord’s party last night I was handed glass after glass of red wine, and, fool I was, kept taking them. I had lots of good conversations, some with old friends I didn’t know would be there, and some with strangers. Stranger-talks can be so rewarding, since their content comes out of nothing and I always learn something about something. I even found myself pitching one guy on The Strategic Coach Program, and a woman told me she’d heard of me because she’s in the program.

    I took the streetcar across town at some silly time to get home, then was followed for a block by a homeless guy who would not take my “No”. There are so many beggars in Toronto it’s staggering. (Coincidentally, before I took out my Pocket PC to write this, I was reading Wallace Shawn’s The Fever which is about this social split. Yes, the “Incontheivable” guy in The Princess Bride and the dinosaur voice in the Toy Story movies is a serious playwright.)

    There’s a fella across the restaurant who I went to Dalhousie with. Since university, he’s become famous for being in the band Sloan. I don’t want to go over and say hi, because I don’t want to come across like a slavering fanboy. He was such a nice guy back in school, and I always thought he should be my best friend instead of the guy who was my best friend. (Though now that I look back, it’s plain that my best friend’s “transgressions” have more to do with the fact that I fancied him rotten and he wasn’t wired that way.)

    Okay, my friends are here, so I’m spared jumping across that social distance.

    P.S. I did end up saying hi. It was no big deal, and Jay’s still a nice guy.

    P.P.S. Here’s my mobile number in Toronto if anyone needs to reach me:
    647-285-0888

  • Never relax

    My last two days in Edinburgh, everything tied up beautifully — so much so that I actually slowed down and relaxed. This, of course, meant that I woke up yesterday morning with a cold.

    It started as a dry throat, one of those constant swallowing things that made me think “Maybe I just used too much garlic in last night’s dinner. Yeah, that’s it: too much garlic. It’s not that I’m sick.” Of course, by the time I reached the airport, I was sniffling, and by the time the plane landed in Toronto my head felt like it was going to burst from the pressure. But I was smart this time and packed mittfuls of batteries and stuffed my memory cards with hours and hours of episodes of Carnivale, so I just zoned out and went to 1930s dustbowl carnie-land for the day.

    Alvaro picked me up from the airport — and he had the cold, too! Then Lisa came home, and she had it. Now I’m at the office, and everyone here has it. It’s great: I don’t have to be “on” because everyone else is sick, too.

    Happily, it’s going through all its stages really quickly, like something from science-fiction (clones growing to maturity in a day, that sort of thing), so I’m hoping it will clear out of my system in short order. I’m chewing on vitamin C tablets to help that along.

    This always happens, doesn’t it? You don’t get sick when you’re busy or stressed, but the minute you relax it hits you. I’ve got to learn not to get so wound up.

    Of course, now that I’m here I’ve got a lot to do. My first task is to try to figure out how to get a stupid file from my Pocket PC beside me to thon Macintosh in front of me.

    Yay! Did it! I’m happy I’ve learnt how to travel well. I should write a follow-up to my geeky mobile office article, about what to take when travelling to different countries and connecting with all manner of different computers. I’m finally good at it. Ah, but I forgot to pack my Strategic Coach nametag. I always forget something.

    Here’s a pic I grabbed while waiting for my bag to disgorge from airport depths onto the baggage carousel:

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    We’ll file this one under the “graphics department needs a slap” category. Yes, I brought a tinned haggis, but a live chicken? No.

  • My eyes are bleeding

    I did it again: I stayed up overnight because I accidentally rebuilt my website. I just started and kept going. I wanted to change to a new type of blogging engine, which meant learning how to make .PHP templates.

    I’m proud of myself, though, because it was hard and I did it!

    I’m going to a ceilidh tonight. Getting all kilted up, too!

  • November 2006

    The dangerous blahs.
    Wednesday, November 29, 2006 , 4:37 PM

    They used to hang people on this spot in the Grassmarket. Right where that Christmas tree is.


    Apologies for my short temper and complete lack of humour lately.

    Brain chemistry? Seasonal Affective Disorder? A pre-month-long-absence-from-my-UK-life-freakout? Whatever it was, I was burnt-out, had no coping resources, and just couldn’t shake it. So instead I stayed at home, slept in late, read books, read meanings into random Internet posts that I don’t see now, and ate an incredible amount of food. Somehow I’ve managed to not put on weight (probably because I only eat once a day), but this eating also ultimately marked the end of this funk: Last night I sat on the couch watching telly, and I ate so many burritos that I started laughing at myself. That’s when I knew the storm had broken.

    Sorry.

    My trips to Canada have this gravity well around them. I think what disturbs me is this idea of being away from my everyday life for protracted periods. I’m scared that these interruptions are going to keep my work and my life from building, because just when I’m about to do something, I end up going away. There’s no point starting anything, which, as a fairly goal-orientated person, is not a comfortable place for me.

    I want to promote the last novel. I want to put together booklets about novel-writing and self-publishing. I want to start work on this new story. I want to find out if this fella I’ve met is… y’know. But I’m leaving, and none of this stuff can get done on the road, because my time in Canada is so busy, and I’m a guest there. I don’t have my time, my space, my stuff.

    Invariably these trips turn out to be inspiring, fun, an opportunity to connect with people I love and to see more of the dynamic, unique culture Toronto supports. But from this side, there’s always a tearing away. Place is important to my sense of where I am in life, literally and figuratively, and this is a hard one to leave behind.

    But now, perhaps because my trip is so close now and I’m not stuck in the waiting room, what I’m feeling is best summed up in the Zen expression “circle with no remainder”: it’s all one life, there’s nothing to lose, move along…

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    Patrick sent me a text message and an e-mail today to tell me how much he loved The Willies, which he’d brought along as travel reading. He confessed that he’d never managed to get into it before, but was hooked this time. (I’m always fine with that; my stuff is not for everyone.) I was thinking about that book just last night, how I’ve already covered much of the territory I tend to be preoccupied with. So with this next story, I’ve got to set out for open waters so I don’t just bump around in the harbour with old ideas. It’s scary (I’ve no idea what form the story will take yet), but it’s exciting.

    I had to smile, seeing Patrick in the picture on his blog: helooks Australian in it.


    Finding salivation.
    Sunday, November 26, 2006 , 5:04 PM

    You never think of yourself as someone who drools in his sleep. But then you launder your pillows, and you learn something: You were wrong. You do drool in your sleep. A lot.


    X marks the soft spot.
    Thursday, November 23, 2006 , 12:14 PM
    Last year, I made everyone’s Xmas presents, crafting variations on hand-bound books for all the people on my list. But now I’ve done that, so I had a big think about how to follow my own act. In the end I decided not to.

    After spending so much to set up the micropress this year, I seriously feel like getting any more “stuff” would make me ill. So I asked my family to take the money they would have spent on me and give it to charity. I did the same, and bought Oxfam gifts for them. I broke out crying looking through their catalogue, thinking about what “Meals for 100 schoolchildren” really means, compared to “Electronic gee-gaw with an obsolence shelf life of about two years”.

    Oxfam also do a lovely job of sending you a little something to give the other person to represent their gift, like the fridge magnet in the “Alpaca package”, which features a really cute down-angled picture of one of these bizarre llama-like natural wool machines — one of which can provide a family with an income and teach them essential farming skills. They also have donkeys, goats (I love goats), and lots of other practical gifts like “Train a schoolteacher” or “Provide 10 people with clean drinking water”.

    I’m sick of hearing about the Nintendo Wii, the Playstation 3, and whatever talking, jiggling sweatshop toy mommies are going to get into fist-fights over this year. We’ve become so disconnected as a race that we’re a danger to ourselves. I’ve been blessed with a surfeit of good fortune, and it feels like time to share it.


    Many downloads.
    Monday, November 20, 2006 , 7:44 PM

    Despite the fact that I’ve had several conversations with my friend Kirsten about the dangers of ego-surfin (as is evidenced by Anne Rice’s public meltdown on Amazon.com over bad reviews), I couldn’t help following a link I just found in an old e-mail from an e-book website host, and discovered that the e-books of my novels listed there have been downloaded nearly a thousand times!

    (*shakes head*)

    The Willies has been downloaded 683 times. The funny thing is, I never hear anything from these people. I suppose downloads don’t by any means equate to reads, but one person posted a review of the book that’s better than the book jacket blurb that I wrote!

    Interesting biotech story that doesn’t take itself too seriously (and thus redeems itself.)

    Hugh and Simon are friends with a chequered history that leaves them separated for years, however events are bringing them back together again. On the trail of an elusive geneticist who is experimenting in cloning Hugh discovers more about himself and Simon than he would like to.

    The narcissistic twist of falling in love with one’s clone is a tad disturbing, perhaps it’s meant to be.

    Overall a gentle read worth a download.

    Thanks, Goldfish Stew, whoever you are!


    One down…
    Friday, November 17, 2006 , 10:21 AM
    That horrible building on the corner of the Royal Mile and George IV Bridge is being demolished. Yay!

    Not-so-yay are the articles I read every other day about the Council saying yes to any developer who waves some pound-notes under their nose (the most recent attempts being another go at the Caltongate development and the Grassmarket in the Old Town).

    It’s happening on a national level, too: an article in yesterday’s Scotsman claimed “Historic Scotland should open up its portfolio buildings and monuments to the private sector or they will face a future of ‘stagnation and under-use’, the Policy Institute said today.” Because we’ve seen what a great job private industry does of investing in infrastructure over, say, seeking short-term profits.

    An award for “Best new building” is going to the Scottish Storytelling Centre. I have mixed feelings on this one, because the space inside is actually nice — bright, airy, and useful — but the outside is another giant concrete box with brushed aluminium fittings, and it’s bolted onto the John Knox House, one of the oldest buildings on the Mile. It’s completely incongruous.

    I learnt a great word yesterday from a German friend:selbstbeweihraucherung*. It means “throwing incense over yourself” — and that’s exactly what it seems the architectural community likes to do: drop these robot-nightmare buildings around the town and then congratulate themselves for the great job they did, with no meaningful conversation between them and the existing communities in those places.

    These bureaucrats are auctioning off the cultural commons for “deals”, and it makes me angry.

    *There should be an umlaut over the A, but Blogger garbles them.


    The weirdness of the leaving.
    Wednesday, November 15, 2006 , 11:59 AM

    I’m in that pre-leaving-for-Canada vortex again. At least this time I recognise what’s going on. It’s tough starting new projects, I’m experiencing existential angst (Oh my God, everything is pointless! Everything I love will die. All is impermanence — except impermanence!), and I’m hating my accent, wondering why I’m not more involved with things here in Scotland. I’m casting my eye about — why, moments before I’m to leave?

    Maybe it’s to anchor myself here. Maybe it’s because I want to have all the hallmarks of a life before I go back to Canada and get the Twenty Questions. (“So do you like it there? What are you working on? Are you seeing anyone?”)

    In truth, this is a “lying fallow” period: I’m reading a lot, I’m making lots of diagrams and plans, my role in my paid work is changing from a gun-for-hire to more of a generative one, and I’m thinking about storylines for the new novel as I put things in my shopping basket. It’s not time for creating things now; anything I built would be a temporary structure. So on the outside, there’s no news to report, nothing going on that anyone could see. Very busy on the inside, though.

    P.S. I just had a chat about all this with the flatmate-weasel. Except he’s in Australia. You’ve gotta love the Internet!


    At freakin’ last!
    Monday, November 06, 2006 , 11:49 PM

    I have been struggling to get the next issue ofDunderheid to print for ages. Patrick was wonderfully generous and did the layout work for me. It looked great, too. There was only one problem: I couldn’t print it.

    The background images to the pages were enormous files at high resolution, and all my equipment kept fainting whenever I tried to send the job through the imposition program I use, which shrinks and rearranges the pages to make a book. Or one side of the print-job would be faded out, or…

    So this project that should have been a fun cakewalk turned into a black hole: nothing, not even time, could escape it!

    Which highlights something nice: When I say I’m going to do a thing, it does tend to happen. So having to put a project aside, one that I’d committed to others that I would finish, was not a good feeling.

    And now I’ve done it!

    Bwa-ha-ha! I can do anything! Now I’m going to build a laser that can destroy the moon!*

    *OK, I’m not going to do that.


    I know what’s next.
    Friday, November 03, 2006 , 1:50 PM

    I attended a second talk by George Monbiot last night, who writes for The Guardian (no, not PEI’s newspaper, the one that used to be called The Manchester Guardian). He was speaking on climate change, and listening to the talk, something clicked.

    I know what my next novel is about.

    I tried to use this idea for a short story to submit to an anthology earlier this year, but I didn’t tell it right. They knew that and rejected it, and while I knew there was promise in it, it did feel like “plot logic” was forcing events along for a reason; they weren’t emerging naturally from the setting and characters.

    I hate writing short stories; it’s like trying to f**k in a phone booth.

    What a great feeling, knowing what I have to do next. Sure, it’s intimidating, because I could screw it up. But the even better thing is that I know that’s a lie: I’ve already got a couple of books under my belt, so that pervasive voice of worry has no foundation in fact.

    I spent far too long trying to sell the last book to people who weren’t interested. And this last year has been about learning how to produce my books myself, starting the micropress. That’s all been good and right. But the whole time I’ve had this niggling feeling: I’m a writer; shouldn’t I be writing something? I knew it wasn’t time, and I know that it’s still not time: right now I need to gobble up research and ideas and inspiration.

    I also want to create a workbook of my process, because I do have a process and I’ve used it successfully three times. First, it’s for me to use, as I write this next book. Then I want to share it with other people.

    I’m sitting in a juice shop, sipping on a carrot-apple-parsley juice (which is better than it sounds). I’ve got my wee mobile office all unpacked and am ready to work… except I realised that the file I need didn’t synchronise with my Pocket PC. It’s still sitting on my PC.

    Damn.


    La Bo-homb.
    Thursday, November 02, 2006 , 2:41 PM

    Madama Butterfly and Die Fledermaus are coming to The Edinburgh Playhouse, and I got a circular in the post, presumably because I was foolish enough to give them my address when my mates and I went to see this company’s production of La Boheme.

    This company has got its priorities so ass-backwards. What are they proud about with these productions? The singing? The orchestration? No…

    Die Fledermaus: “…including two champagne fountains”!

    Madama Butterfly:”…with an equisite authentic Japanese garden”!

    La Boheme‘s big feature was “real gypsy dancers”, who were more like bored extras, awkwardly coming to the front of the stage once or twice to do a few moves in group scenes. Meanwhile, the Bohemian garret where the characters lived looked like it was made of mud, and in one scene it “snowed” so much that the actors were covered in several inches of plastic flakes and the show ground to a halt while the curtain dropped and the crew swept it all up, then the show could start again.

    At the end of this incredible story, whose music I’ve known for a while, though this was the first live opera I’d seen… I didn’t feel a thing.

    You really have to f* up to have people not cry at the end of La Boheme.

    People wonder how I could have studied theatre yet don’t like going to it anymore. It’s because people cheat the audience out of good experiences. They big-A act instead of committing themselves personally to their parts, and they layer their productions with stuff instead of taking away everything that could obstruct the raw, human story in them.

    People don’t care about fountains and gypsy dancers and helicopters and chandeliers, they care about people.


    Samhuinn 2006
    Wednesday, November 01, 2006 , 12:06 AM

    Tonight I went to Samhuinn with some friends (Liz, Sheila, and Liz’s new flatmate Jenny). Samhuinn — pronounced sow-WAIN — is a Celtic celebration marking the death of summer and the coming of winter. It’s the opposite bookend to the vernal event Beltane.

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  • October 2006

    Getting geeky with the girls.
    Monday, October 30, 2006 , 1:35 AM

    There’s a trend here: My first “officially” published short story appeared in an anthology from a women’s reading series. (I co-curated a special men’s night for them.) Now I’ve got an article on Girls Gone Mobile, a website dedicated to “putting a friendlier face on mobility”. But really, I am a man!

    If you know me, though, you’ll know that I am a big geek when it comes to mobile computing. I love being able to fit everything I need to work right in my jacket pockets, and that a big part of my work now relies on my being able to unpack and write anyplace I happen to be.

    Most websites about Pocket PCs and other tech gear tend to focus on product announcements, developments, and — well, basically more things to buy. So I’m always eager to see articles that help people be more productive with the equipment they already have. Given the chance to add one more of these, I leapt at it, and wrote this.

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    You can’t make this $#1% up.
    Monday, October 23, 2006 , 9:48 AM

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    Running a micropress is expensive.
    Sunday, October 22, 2006 , 5:36 PM

    I’ve had a lovely weekend, hanging out with NewFriendSmell Chris, who had a birthday, and spending time with the elder Robertshaws (Patrick‘s folks, who were up visiting). We had a lovely meal last night at The Scotsman, the old newspaper office on the North Bridge that’s now a hotel and restaurant.

    I’ve also been making lots of books for swapping with others and just to make sure I’ve got spares. And I had some blank books to make, too, like one for Patrick to take on his trip to Australia, which happens very soon.

    Unfortunately, my colour laser printer is misbehaving. Its printing has become patchy. It’s okay, but it’s not suitable anymore for producing the cover of a book.

    It’s important both for me and for the point I’m trying to make that my products aren’t “good for something homemade”. I’d like them to just be good.

    The replacement parts for this printer are expensive enough that it doesn’t make sense anymore to keep throwing money at it. (I’ve already spent so much on toner this year it’s sickening.) What I’ve done instead is buy a more economical black and white laser printer for producing the inside pages and a small inkjet printer for doing the colour covers. I’ve also ordered some waterproof paper, but hopefully the covers won’t run even on normal photo paper. We’ll see.

    It’s all about refining the process, but ouch! the cost of learning. At least the pages and covers will be sharper-looking now, ’cause the colour printer was an older model, so there were compromises there from the get-go.

    You can hear that I’m still in the rationalisation stage of having just barfed out a gob of money.

    And now I have to figure out how to sell this big beige Volkswagen of a printer when the new ones arrive. There’s no storage room here at the cottage! If you’re in the area and want it, you can have it, cheap. The printing is fine, but not for big full-colour pages or at the ridiculous volume of sheets I’m running off. Or I’ll give it away, if anyone knows of a charity that’ll pick it up and give me a receipt.

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    Finding roots at the grocery store.
    Thursday, October 19, 2006 , 8:04 PM

    Tonight, as I was buying groceries at Real Foods, I was stopped at the checkout by an older man who’d been having a pointed discussion with the young woman at the till. He wanted my opinion, he said. Did I agree that supplements were a waste of money, that they just pass through you? Given that I had some in my basket — the first time I’d bought any in a while — I figured he was baiting me.

    Okay, I thought, I’ll bite.

    So we got into a mild round of “Are vitamins worthwhile?” What I’d bought was something to help me sleep, which is particularly challenging now that the baby next door seems to be trying to turn itself inside out each night by wailing, and its parents seem to be trying that tactic of not paying attention to it so it will learn to sleep through the night. It’s not working. I also bought some greens stuff and some vitamin C. The weather’s changing and I don’t want to get sick, and sometimes I eat a lot of the same thing, and could use to round out my diet a bit.

    Of course, my accent is a conversation in itself, so we quickly got onto the “No, I’m Canadian” branch, which led to the matter of my name.

    “Ah,” he said. “I’m Ranald Alasdair MacDonald, the 32nd chief of the MacDonalds of Keppoch.”

    I’d recently read a piece about him, and the legal battle he’d gone through for over thirty years to stake this claim.

    Over the next half hour, he took me through the entire history of my race. He went so quickly I could barely keep up, as we Celts swept across continents and influenced this and that. Gaelic words spiced his descriptions, and he was dismayed that I didn’t have the Gaelic at all. (I tried to teach myself from a book in high school, but it’s just not one of those languages. I got as far as basics like “the black dog” — cu dubh — but had no idea if I was speaking any of it correctly.)

    It was all fascinating, and under other circumstances than standing outside the whole foods grocery store in the rain I would have liked to take notes.

    Then the talk turned to how the Celts delivered Christianity westward. “Are you a Catholic or a Protestant?” asked the chief.

    “Neither,” I replied.

    And the next bit of conversation almost ruined what had gone before. I managed to keep my defenses lowered until he said something about having a closed mind toward Christ, and I had to say, “I’m not an unintelligent person. That’s not why I don’t follow it.” He apologised, and said that he didn’t mean to imply that. And set back in on his reasoning for being a Christian and why I had to see the fact of it.

    I just kept my mouth shut and let the chieftain speak, and there was no turning in my mind, nor in his, because that’s not how these conversations go. I learned that one from the Mormons, actually: Where there is contention there will never be understanding. I’ve found that to be true.

    Eventually, he made a joke of it, punctuated with a pat on my chest (he’d been doing this throughout the conversation), telling me about his daughter marrying a Muslim man. “She converted for you, and that’s fine,” he told the husband. “And you can raise your children as you see fit. Just don’t try to convert me, because I imagine that you’re the same: you’d rather jump out that window than be converted.” With that, he smiled at me, held out a thumbs-up, and walked away into the rain.

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    Pass the parcel.
    Monday, October 16, 2006 , 1:31 PM

    Yesterday I participated in a panel discussion with three other self-publishing authors about “DIY Culture” — that is, culture that people generate for themselves, from scratch, often in opposition to, or just completely outside the provided culture of mass commerce.

    It takes more effort to do this, and the rewards are sometimes hard to quantify, but I have a conviction that people are hungry for it, that it’s much more satisfying to engage with a world we’ve had a hand in creating than just endlessly buying things that we’ve been convinced we need by businesses, being sold the idea that our experience isn’t as good as something out there, that there’s always something wrong, something missing, and we have to pay to get the answer. Taking both approaches to an extreme, I believe one can save us while the other could kill us.

    In the specific instance of publishing, this means that instead of whingeing about the state of the book publishing industry (slush piles, takeovers, editors being replaced with marketers), you just go ahead and do your own thing. There are lots of people to tell you how to try to woo the industry, and lots of people bitching about how difficult that is, but it felt great to stand up and say “Ignore all that! Don’t wait for someone to give you permission to do what you want to do!” And then we went on to show that doing it is well within most people’s reach.

    The other speakers were:

    Gavin Inglis, a good and funny writer I’ve heard present work at the Writers Bloc performance evenings and have wanted to meet for a while. Turns out he’s also into open-source software, which has redoubled my determination to learn Scribus, a free package for designing books — particularly after fighting with InDesign for days and days, trying to get our Dunderheid ‘zine printed before the fair. In the end, I failed, which is not something I’m accustomed to, and do not enjoy.

    Helen Moore, a self-styled “eco-poet”, who treads that fine line between polemic and poesy, managing to strike a beautiful, connected, incisive balance between them. (She’s also the 8th Bard of Bath!)

    Nine, who produces a good old-fashioned ‘zine using found images, very good hand-lettering, a Pritt stick, and a photocopier. Within those pages she writes with an honest, immediate force that really impressed me. Personal narrative can often come off like the blubberings of a drunk who’s sat next to you at a bar, unbidden, and has decided to tell you their troubles. But the copy she gave me is full of the strong, quiet reflections of someone who’s trying to make sense of big personal experiences, and has broken through to something universal.

    The talk was about who we are, why we decided to self-publish, what we believe DIY culture is, why it’s important, and a practical description of our (quite diverse) methods of self-publishing.

    I was honoured to share the platform with those three, and happy to meet like-minded people who were up to something great. With Helen I know I’ve rekindled a friendship that meant a lot to me, and I hope to stay in touch with Gavin and Nine, too.

    I was equally honoured that people came out to hear what we had to say, especially because what drove them to get up and come down to The Drill Hall on a Sunday morning was likely an inner prompting about a projectthey wanted to create.

    Following the talk, I gave a bookbinding demonstration. I was surprised that more than twice as many people as I’d planned came out for it, so I was short on materials. But people doubled up and, as my good friend Wendy pointed out, helped to teach each other, because they all kind of took off at their own speed. I thought things would go in a much more orderly fashion, but because I’d provided them with a handbook (which you can download a PDF of here), they just raced ahead — four tables full of people stacking and stitching, cutting and binding, with paper, glue, and thread everywhere. Before I knew it, people were showing me the books they’d made — and they were great! (Much better than my first book!)

    Even more exciting was the joy on their faces as they told me all the plans they had for this new-found skill. Wow.

    The Radical Book Fair is organised each year by Elaine and Tarlochen at Word*Power Bookshop. Unlike thatother book festival, the events cost nothing.

    Now, I have to confess that I’ve often been scared away from Word*Power events in the past because they tend to be political. But what really impressed me about all the presenters I saw over the weekend was how positive and powerful they seemed. These were people coming back from their various fields to say, yes, the situation is bad, but they weren’t there just to complain or play the victim. They were there to rally the intelligence and passion of the attendees, and did it in a practical way.

    The whole thing started off really well for me, with a talk from Chris Johnstone, who pointed out that a lot of us shut off about issues simply because we can’t process the way they make us feel. We immediately jump from thewhat the issue is, he says, to the how — trying to sort out a solution. Since that’s often not immediately possible, we shut down, turn away, or make fun of it.

    I guess what I found valuable about his talk, what helped me be there for the rest of the weekend and participate in more than just my little bit, was his message of “It’s okay to be overwhelmed. It’s okay to not know what your part in this is.” As a result, I had a fascinating, engaging weekend that filled me with ideas.

    I also got to hear and meet Alastair McIntosh, whose book Soil and Soul I read earlier this year and found immensely inspiring. He’s got this loopy mind that manages to tie together sociology, science, history, theology, and likely a hundred other strains of thought. Listening to him present his poems, which were essentially the stuff stuff he left out of Soil and Soul to make it more generally palatable, I thought “When I grow up, I want to be that guy.” Not doing his work (on land reform, crofting, and the like — essential to the survival of Scotland’s landscape and heritage), but just to have that ability to synthesise divergent ways of thinking.
    ~

    I did a lot of work in the lead-up to this event, and now I need a break. It’s time to digest what I got from the experience, to relax for a bit, and to just live.

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    N.B.: Change of phone number.
    Friday, October 06, 2006 , 6:01 PM

    My mobile phone was breaking down, so I’ve got a new phone, and, with it, a new telephone number.

    So please note that my number is now 07847 183 931.

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    Flying solo.
    Thursday, October 05, 2006 , 10:55 PM

    I’m single again. It’s okay: no nasty surprises, and it was done with affection and respect on both sides.

    So there you go. Another chapter.

    I’m good.

    ~

    My work for The Radical Book Fair continues. I’m making lots of books, both novels and blank books, trying to find ways to package everything I’ve learnt as well as some creative content so I can share it with other people.

    Yesterday’s breakthrough was learning to do this map-fold. But ultimately I didn’t learn it from the linked article. I had to stop and work it out from first principles — but that doesn’t mean I’m going to go start making paper crickets and fish and junk. I like working with paper, but I don’t like things that are anthropomorphised. Paper is amazing because it’s a package for ideas, a telepathic gift from nature. No need to turn it into a frog.

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    Bet you didn’t even know I was gone.
    Sunday, October 01, 2006 , 8:14 PM

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    p>I just got back from a trip to the Highlands. I met some of my mates and stayed in a cottage/cabin/chalet in a lovely place called Tomich. It was a nice break, with lots of time spent doing nothing, or taking walks through the Scottish autumn landscape with all its shades of brown and green. I even finally got around to trying to teach myself to watercolour:

  • September 2006

    I smoked my finger.
    Tuesday, September 26, 2006 , 2:31 PM

    The other night I was making popcorn — using up a commercial bag of it that I had left over, rather than making it from scratch like I usually do. The thing burned so badly in the microwave that when I opened the bag, the index finger on my left hand got cured. I mean, like,smoked. It’s days later now, and the thing’s still discoloured like I’ve been smoking for twenty years and it smells like burnt popcorn.

    Kind of gross, that it’s possible to do that to part of a living body. Thankfully, I’m good at regenerating. Call me Mr Salamander. Actually, don’t.

    ~

    I know, I haven’t blogged in ages. I’ve been busy making progress on all the various booky-thingies I want to have ready for the 15 October presentation. I won’t list them all here ’cause it’ll just sound to you like I’m bragging, and for me, I’ll just get freaked out by how much still needs to be done.

    So the next lesson in my life seems to be about balancing work-work, creative-project-work, and my personal life. I guess it’s not easy being involved with someone who, as it was put to me this weekend, “could think of something to do 24 hours a day” (or words to that effect).

    Having been single for so long up until now, and having once gone through a major depression over losing a relationship, that’s by design. My life is stuffed full of projects and people that make me happy. I generate the whole thing.

    So where does someone else fit in? Where can someone else fit in?

    It is possible, given that I’m committed to learning how to do it rather than getting so set in my ways now that I’ll never be able to accommodate anyone or make it a priority to think of relationship as another adventure, rather than as a distraction from my work.

    This life is great, but I don’t want to come back to repeat the grade, and I have a suspicion that knowing how to love someone will be on the finals.

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    Trees are good.
    Wednesday, September 13, 2006 , 3:40 PM

    Well, mostly good: One of the plants in front of our house is a big stinky thing that smells like curry.

    Last night, Patrick and I took our recycling out to a shopping complex (because recycling in this city is barely existent), and while out there we went to HomeBase and traded in an ill-fitting towel-rack for two pretty plants that will not stink, but will flower instead.

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    Quick ‘n’ Dirty Bookbinding
    Friday, September 08, 2006 , 9:06 AM

    On 15 October* at The Radical Book Fair in Edinburgh, I’m going to be heading a panel discussion about self-publishing/DIY culture. Following that, I’m giving a demonstration called “Quick ‘n’ Dirty Bookbinding”. In preparation, I’ve made a wee take-away guide that, hopefully, makes the process simple with some illustrations and instructions.

    I’ve made a printable PDF of the guide, which you can download here. It just needs to be:
    — Printed on both sides of the paper.
    — Cut along the middle of the page (side to side, not top to bottom).
    — Stapled.


    Quick ‘n’ Dirty Bookbinding: A4
    Quick ‘n’ Dirty Bookbinding: Letter

    *I originally put the wrong date here. The “DIY Lit” and “Quick ‘n’ Dirty Bookbinding” sessions are on the 15th of October.

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    Of ju-ju.
    Thursday, September 07, 2006 , 3:29 PM

    Pleh. Just got a rejection letter from a press in Canada. A friend of mine is an author on their roster and her book has done really well for them. Despite the fact that she personally recommended me to them, they sent me a form letter. (Form e-mail, actually.)

    It’s so long since I sent the book to them (ten months) that I’ve actually had time to forget I had and publish it myself.

    Coincidentally, I got rid all my old rejection letters yesterday. For a while I’ve been thinking that these letters are full of bad ju-ju that I shouldn’t have around in my space.

    I did keep a few that were supportive. And in all fairness, none of the letters was particularly bad. But even when a rejection is vague it hurts. I’m not in the business of sending out manuscripts anymore, so why was I keeping them? For reference? I don’t need that.

    Patrick went out and bought a vicious cross-cut shredder so he could get rid of some old documents, and he let me use it first. I took each of the letters out of the envelope I’d labelled with a skull and crossbones and dropped it into the machine, which quickly reduced it to snow.

    Karen came by later and eagerly snatched up the remains, which were like a puffy tickertape afro in a carrier bag, and took it home to turn it into compost, which, she said, she will turn into courgettes.

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    Demolition Mom!
    Monday, September 04, 2006 , 4:13 PM

    My mum was in a car accident:

    She’s fine, though a bit bruised, but her little Mazda 323 had its face smashed in when the car was cut off by an SUV taking a shortcut. At least the wee red car had the fortitude to flip the offending SUV onto its roof as its last act.

    I shudder when I think about what SUVs usually do to the passengers of smaller cars that get into accidents with them. Happily, that’s not the case here. Mom has another red car on order, though it’s a nuisance that she has to do this, as the other one was paid off.

    ~

    Speaking of face-smashings, some hoodlums down in Brighton attacked my good friend Tomasz over the weekend. I refuse to get all Daily Mail about the event and decry the state of our civilisation, as writers such as the keeper of Anxiety Culture point out that, contrary to the hysteric cries of the media, crime is actually not on the rise.

    When things like this happen, though, to someone you love, it’s difficult not to despair about the sort of person — group of people, actually — who are capable of being so vicious, unempathetic, and cowardly as to attack a lone individual for no reason.

    ~

    It’s silly superstition, but I worried about the triune nature of bad news as Garry drove me home on Sunday. We’d had a great weekend, driving in a big loop through the countryside around Invernesshire. I also stayed at his folks’ place (which I suspect freaked us both out a bit), but that was fine.

    Then I got a call a while later from an upset Garry: he’d hit a grouse on his way home. We’d seen some the day before, a foursome of these little birds, wandering straight toward the motorway like animated, befeathered American footballs.

    I assured him it wasn’t his fault, just as he looked at his front bumper and found it splattered with grouse-blood. Still, not so bad as third bad newses go.

    Oh, and here’s another picture from our day in St Andrew’s, just to prove that we look nothing alike:

    ~

    Leith Stories
    I received an e-mail from a fella named Shawn. He’s looking for stories about Leith for a neat local culture project called [murmur]. Here’s how he describes it:

    We’ve done it in a few neighbourhoods in Toronto and other places. In case you don’t know about it yet, we record people talking about specific geographic locations, then we put up a green ear shaped sign in that location with a phone number on it that people can call with their mobile and listen to those stories while standing in the exact spot. You can listen to some of the stories here www.murmurtoronto.ca.

    We’re going to do it in Leith. Judging by the address on your webpage I don’t think you live in Leith, but I’m wondering if you know and folks, writerly or not, who would be up for going for a little walk around the neighbourhood with me while I record them talking about a few places.

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    p>He’s in town this month, so if you have any Leith stories, please contact him at shawn AT spacing DOT ca.

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  • August 2006

    I am moved.
    Wednesday, August 30, 2006 , 2:22 PM

    I write this post from my desk in the cottage. Yes, the move is finally over.

    Patrick was an amazing help. I’m deeply in his debt for all the Ikea furniture he moved and assembled. And he was right: everything did fit into the new space. In fact, through some sort of TARDIS effect, I somehow have actually got more storage here.

    Cleaning up the previous flat turned out to be a big chore — yet another thing that displaced a lot of time and put me off my schedule. There wasn’t even any real payoff for it: the landlord barely looked at it when he met me there for the inspection (which really just involved me handing him the keys while marvelling at his pinstriped zoot-suit).

    I also had lots of help from my friend Julia, who was visiting for the week (I know her from The Strategic Coach, and she’s “obscenely beautiful” according to Liz), as well as from…


    Garry.

    Yes, he exists! (It seemed like time to catch up on posting here, and a discussion of events would not be complete without acknowledging him.)

    Okay, I’ve got to get back to what I was working on. It’s great to have this space with a built-in best mate who happens to own lots of fun toys, but I still have too many things to get done at specific times. A holiday in my new space would be nice.

    Ooh: Labour Day!

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    Doing, doing, doing.
    Thursday, August 17, 2006 , 10:22 PM

    I’ve had a very busy week. But I’m on top of it. ThisGetting Things Done is popular for a reason.

    Normally, I’ve got every project in my life floating about in my head, active, open, demanding attention. This is nicer: I just open a folder for the day and only have to think about or deal with what’s in it. Even though it means being more serious and actually doing what’s on my schedule for the day, there are far fewer things to deal with, and they’re set up in a way that I can actually act on them and have a sense of accomplishment about — well, getting things done.

    So, yes, I’ve joined another cult.

    But the moving thing? Easy. It’s all broken down into little steps, each of which is set to happen sometime, until it’s all done. Same with the talk I’m giving in October, the zine I’m producing, the website I’m creating, the…

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    Bunnies and boxes.
    Thursday, August 10, 2006 , 3:59 PM

    I’m going crazy. I’ve got two flats this month, and I’m trying to get myself moved into the new one, except it’smuch smaller, and I’ve got some big things I can’t move by myself. To make it all worse, I’m miserable at asking anyone for help. In spite of that, it’s coming anyway.

    My new flatmate, best mate Patrick, has gone ahead and is assembling my flat-pack furniture because he enjoys doing that and I HATE it. In fact, I loathe all housey stuff. Hate it all. I don’t know why. And here I am facing the necessity to do lots of it, as well as dismantling my press operation to move it to someplace it might not fit.

    So I’m like a little bunny in a box whose kill switch is about to go off. (Bunnies’ ability to die at will keeps coming up in conversation lately.)

    ~

    I finally caved: after regularly reading several websites on“lifehacking”, or the science of organisation, planning, and other various tricks to make your life work better, I finally caved and bought the book that everyone on these sites praises: Getting Things Done, by David Allen.

    I’m just getting into the meat of it, but the structure-geek in me is looking forward to implementing his system. But why it’s a pressing matter is that I’ve got a lot going on in my life right now, with two big projects at work (a company history for our new client website, and a jillion illustrations for our new team website), along with lots of other press-related projects. But it’s all so big I’ve been finding myself paralysed. (I played a videogame until 6AM the other night, which is a sure sign that I’m overloaded and feel the need to escape.)

    Already, the book has helped me see some major flaws in the way I approach projects. For one, my to-do list is mammoth, and floats just behind me like some creature from a Hayao Miyazaki cartoon. But the things on it are often huge, vague, and not things I can act on.

    Anyway, I bought some folders today, which would likely make other readers of the book laugh: it’s the first thing everyone does, buy a stack of folders. I guess the idea is to file like crazy and keep everything out of your head so you can just be doing what you’re doing.

    I look forward to that, because I’m not there now.


    I’m moving!
    , 10:40 AM

    I just picked up the keys from the letting agent. Patrickand I are going to share this place:

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  • July 2006

    Video from Toronto Launch.
    Monday, July 31, 2006 , 6:21 PM


    I finally posted the video that Alvaro shot on his digicam at the Toronto launch of Idea in Stone.

    To see it, click here, or visit the book’s page.

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    Glad she had another source of paper…
    Sunday, July 30, 2006 , 10:00 PM


    My first reader-submitted photo:
    My friend Kirsten took The Willies along with her on a recent kayaking trip in Massasauga, Ontario.

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    Thank f*@#!
    Wednesday, July 26, 2006 , 5:21 PM

    …I’ve got a fan!

    No, not for the book. Although I have been printing and binding books constantly for the past week. I just mean an oscillating floor-fan. It’s been so bloody hot here lately!

    Scotland? This is Scotland, right?

    I’ve been a bad friend and blogger, I know. I’ve not picked up my social life here since coming back because I’ve been making books and… other stuff. (Fun stuff, a someone, but I’ve told myself in the past I should not talk about those things here.)

    So if you’ve ordered a book, it should be in the post to you now. I hope they don’t mangle it.

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    Home again.
    Thursday, July 20, 2006 , 12:38 PM


    Okay, I’ve been home for several days now, but it’s taken me this long to reach the “Update your blog!” part of the vast to-do list I came home with.

    I’ve posted my pictures from Toronto, PEI, and Oban. Just click the image above to go to the gallery. The pics are very small — the next size up and they poked way out of the browser window. If you’d like bigger ones of any of them, just e-mail me.

    And if you ordered a book from me while I was away, you’ll be happy to know that production has ramped up to full speed, and I’ve slightly modified the way I’m producing the books, so I’m happier than ever with the result.

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    Familiar to myself.
    Sunday, July 09, 2006 , 7:12 PM

    I just had lunch with my friend David Moses. We were both involved in theatre here on the Island years ago. Now he runs a local video production company and also writes for a CBC show called “Robson Arms“.

    We had the best chat for a few hours, mainly about story structure. That was fun, talking with someone who’s passionate about it, too. Structure goes so far to explain why some stories work and others don’t.

    I learnt a lot from him about the writing process in television, which is very collaborative. At first it sounded intimidating, this talk of “writers’ rooms” and discussions about hammering out “beat sheets”, outlines, and drafts. But as he described the process, it actually sounded kind of fun (assuming the personalities involved don’t clash).

    I’m in a little café in town, where the wireless is free. A number of venues in downtown Charlottetown have that, whereas in Toronto it’s more the UK model of having to buy (ridiculously priced) time with one of the major mobile networks. Free is good. And I’m drinking a root beer, just ’cause I can. I may pop into Dairy Queen on the way home, just ’cause I can.

    Diet and exercise. Coming soon.

    Graham Putnam was in here when I arrived, and we chatted. I met him when he was just “Anne’s son” — Anne was a stage manager for several shows I was in here. But now Graham is one of the founding members of a comedy troupe called Sketch-22 that’s doing really well here.

    Tomorrow I’m going to The Queen Street Commons, a collective office/work space created by my friend Cynthia Dunsford and several others. Cynthia is the radio personality I met last summer when I did the hellish emergency response acting gig at the RCMP. I’m looking forward to catching up with her, and sharing ideas.

    Then in the evening I’m going with my folks to see thelatest show Anne is stage managing for The Charlottetown Festival. And after that, I’m hoping to meet my friend Julain, who’s an amazing singer performing in the Festival.

    So even though I think I don’t know anyone on the Island anymore, it seems I do, and they’re all doing creative work and doing well at it.

    The ground here, as in Toronto, is rich loam that just plucks at my feet, trying to pull out roots. “Stay, stay!” But no, it’s just a visit. And it’s getting on time to head home.

    This afternoon, there was a service here to welcome the gay, lesbian, transgendered, two-spirited, etc etc community back to the church as part of PEI’s pride week. I had every intention of going, but got engrossed in my conversation. I suppose chatting with Dave about story structure has more to do with my life than a church service, no matter how well-intentioned, revisionist, apologist, or whatever it might have been.

    Yesterday, I spent the entire afternoon sitting out in the backyard on a chaise longue, reading cover to cover a book my father thought I’d like. The air was the perfect temperature and moved just enough to be cooling, just enough to flip the pages. The tree overhead kept me from getting sunburnt, but let through a dappled light to read by. And later in the afternoon, a faint smell of wood-smoke drifted on the air, making me think of going camping.

    The book I read was A Stranger to Myself, the recently-discovered memoirs of Willy Peter Reese, a soldier in the Wehrmacht who served several tours of duty on the Russian front. It bordered on too poetic, but ultimately I found myself feeling great empathy with this person; if I were in those insane circumstances, I imagine I would have experienced them exactly that way. One moment he would witness an unthinkable atrocity, but the next moment would present him with a vision of natural beauty or a flash of joy about simply being alive.

    In several key places, though, it reminded me of one of Natalie Goldberg’s writing principles: “For every cosmic statement you make, you must give ten concrete details.”

    Time to move on. It’s just kinda nice to have a bit of private time in town to just do my own thing. The instinct to do this lets me know it’s time to get back home.

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    Launched me over the moon.
    Saturday, July 01, 2006 , 6:53 PM

    I’m just waiting for Lisa to swing around Mark and Eric’s to pick me up and take me to the airport, so I figured I’d take a few minutes to catch up.

    Over the past few days I’ve met or bumped into a lot of the significant players in my Toronto story. (There are still a few I missed; my apologies.) I can’t do justice to how much these meetings meant to me, and a list of names doesn’t make for good reading, so I’ll just skip ahead.

    ~

    Wednesday was one of those peak days. You know the ones? I hope you do.

    It started with a meeting between me and my editor, Cath, at her house. I’ve been writing for The Strategic Coachfor some time now, and I’m truly grateful for the arrangement I’ve got going with them. I have a lot of freedom in my life, I’ve got engaging work to do, and they treat me well. But whenever I’ve projected forward, I couldn’t see anything that gave me great confidence. The only way to grow or advance seemed to involve moving outside of my talent — putting things into words — into the business of creating those things that need describing. But that’s not my thing: I’m not a wealthy, successful entrepreneur, nor do I have anything of my own to say to that group.

    Cath dreamt up the idea of something big on the fly (this is one of her talents) something that we both got excited about. We sat there on her puffy couch with a perfect summer’s day outside (the humidity and sunlight, the colours of the trees and sky all balanced to raise the setting to the surreality of a remembered childhood summer), and she described a new role: Storyteller in Residence.

    The Strategic Coach has all sorts of concepts and tools that thousands of entrepreneurs have used to drastically change their experience of owning a business. Instead of entrepreneurial life being crushingly hectic, isolating, and disspiriting (when money itself didn’t make up for all the personal costs nor provide any meaning) they learned to use it as a tool for becoming more free, having more rewarding relationships and richer experiences, and many of them have developed ways to make a contribution to society much bigger than themselves.

    What we don’t really have is a way to capture their experiences, which are ultimately one of our most valuable resources. Sure, we’ve got all these great ideas, but they only mean something in the context of the changes they produce in real people’s lives. So this imaginary role Cath dreamt up would involve me adding that capability to the company. What I do at work and away from work may ultimately become indistinguishable from each other.

    I like that.

    From her place, Cath and I darted out to the Thomas Fisher Rare Book Library, a darkened, climate-controlled cement cathedral, where my friend PJ showed us several amazing old books, starting with a gorgeous illuminated Book of Hours (with hand-illustrated figures who seemed to have stepped from a deck of playing cards standing amidst exacting calligraphy and raised gold details).

    Then PJ showed us The Wicked Bible, which has a deliberate misprint — “Thou shalt commit adultery” — planted there through act of publishing sabotage. Finally, he took a first folio of Shakespeare from a large leather box, which slid open in two parts like a cigar tube, then from its marbled paper hard cover, and opened its pages for us. Because it’s vellum (not wood), we were even allowed to touch it.

    The stories behind some of these texts — “Forgeries and Mystifications”, as the Library of Congress refers to them — were good enough for a slew of exciting novels. (Hmm…)

    Time ran out, and we had to take a quick taxi-ride back to the Coach offices, where Dan Sullivan (founder of the company, along with his wife) was waiting in our studio to lay down the recording of a piece I’d written for one of our publications. On this trip, I’d been present for the original phone interview he conducted with several of our clients, wrote a piece based on the call, then got to hear him make this recording.

    After work, I went with Margaux to It’s Not a Deli. At first, it seemed like there might only be a handful of us there for the launch, but as we got closer to the start time (well, the later one; I suspect that I communicated two different times), more and more people poured in until the room was packed and we’d absconded with most of the chairs from the restaurant section.

    The crowd was made up of old friends from all different slices of my life, along with a few people I’d never met before. The vibe in the room was incredibly friendly.

    Cosgrove asked me what I wanted for an introduction, and I gave him a thin brief that would have lasted about eight seconds. When we finally started, he launched into what amounted to a stand-up routine that he just pulled from the air. It was a charismatic blend of piss-take and tribute.

    We started the show with Lisa and her two friends,Caitriona and Suzie, who fired the evening off like a shot with a high-energy set of bluegrass music. Their voices blended wonderfully and their instruments — guitars, ukelele, and fiddle — resonated against the whitewashed brick walls, strumming each of us in the audience like happy catgut.

    Cosgrove then came back to introduce me. I did my first reading from Idea in Stone, a rather long section from the middle of the book, but everyone got every single moment (laughter’s always the indicator). I have to tell you, that’s just about the best thing in the world for an author.

    Coz did his thing some more, pulling the funny from the aether, the girls whipped us up again with some more yee-haw, then slowed it down for an a capella number.

    Then I came back on to do two shorter readings from deep in the story. While writing a book, I make an effort to create each chapter as its own story, contributing to the whole, but also providing its own payoffs so that it almost stands alone. I was pleased that these selections worked that way.

    When I finished and stood up from the chair, the lights in my eyes made a whitish halftone of the faces of all those people who were clapping and cheering for what we’d just done. The applause wasn’t the reward; the reward was that these people had so willingly extended their imaginations to encompass my own dreaming-time captured on those pages. And they got it. The same things that came to me now lived for them.

    We had a raffle for the one spare copy of the book I’d brought, and for two blank journals I’d brought just in case (thank you, Past-Me). Then Lisa and Mark went through the crowd, pimping the book, and I sold eight right there and then, with a few more coming through the website since.

    Afterward, we all hung around and drank a few beers as people drifted away. I had a photo-session with Rannie, who took the headshot photo I’ve been using forever. (Which I realise I haven’t credited on the book — bad! I will amend that as soon as possible.) Hopefully something will come of those that I can use as a more current likeness.

    Several people made connections, too, between their various talents and needs, which always gets me excited: I like seeing people team up and create things.

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    I’m finishing this entry in Prince Edward Island, at my parents’ kitchen table, looking out at the brilliant green of their backyard. It’s just breezy enough, just warm enough.

    Air Canada delivered me to Montreal after my flight to Charlottetown was already supposed to have left, so I got to dash the two miles or whatever it is across the whole length of Dorval airport then shove myself into a heated beer-can of a plane to PEI.

    Of course, to complete the Air Canada Client Experience(TM) (“We’re not happy until you’re not happy!”), they delivered my little piece of overflow luggage, but not my main bag. So I’m wearing my dad’s shorts.

    More happened in Toronto — more work-stuff, more social-stuff. But the launch stands out as one of the best nights of my life.

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