Today Craig and I are going to the nice new café at John O’Groats to have a planning day, but before we go there, it’s important for me to finish this page, to know what’s important for me this year, and in the years ahead.
Thinking about this in bed this morning, a few things came to mind:
1) I want to go deep: I want to read and to write and to draw, to discover what’s inside me and bring that out, rather than watch TV or distract myself with the internet.
2) I want to focus on what I can do, what I want to do, what I do well””and not bitch about the other stuff, like political and financial injustices, which I really have no intention of working on.
Lance Armstrong doesn’t owe me an apology! I don’t care about him, even though there is a whole industry devoted to trying to get me outraged about him and entertain myself to death.
3) I want to stay calm and centred: I get wound up about work and getting things done, and it doesn’t get any more done, and is probably what would kill me. Why take care over my health and eat all these special foods if I’m not going to take care of that?
4) [This one’s kinda personal; the gist is that we need to make some decisions about family.]
5) And then there’s the question of where do we want to live, in terms of our quality of life.
These aren’t easy questions, and built into even asking them is the expectation that there are answers to these. Some answers may be incompatible. But we still have to ask the questions!
Like being calm, though, like being centred, it’s important for us to remember that these are our answers, our choices, and that we are allowed to do what we want. There are no right answers out there, and it’s a matter of choosing rather than deciding between pros and cons. And life is going to happen even if we avoid the questions, so we might as well be the ones making the choice.